My Shadows - Your Borderline

What does it mean to you?

The most recent UN report on global warming, compiled by scientists from 113 different countries, is 90% certain that we are responsible. Should the temperature continue to rise, this 19 page report warns of the following dangers to entire planet:



According to the UN report, the world will be a much hotter place by 2100. This will be the impact...




In North America, a new dust-bowl brings deserts to life in the high plains states, centred on Nebraska, but also wipes out agriculture and cattle ranching as sand dunes appear across five US states, from Texas in the south to Montana in the north. Rising sea levels accelerate as the Greenland ice sheet tips into irreversible melt, submerging atoll nations and low-lying deltas. In Peru, disappearing Andean glaciers mean 10 million people face water shortages. Warming seas wipe out the Great Barrier Reef and make coral reefs virtually extinct throughout the tropics. Worldwide, a third of all species on the planet face extinction




The Amazonian rainforest burns in a firestorm of catastrophic ferocity, covering South America with ash and smoke. Once the smoke clears, the interior of Brazil has become desert, and huge amounts of extra carbon have entered the atmosphere, further boosting global warming. The entire Arctic ice-cap disappears in the summer months, leaving the North Pole ice-free for the first time in 3 million years. Polar bears, walruses and ringed seals all go extinct. Water supplies run short in California as the Sierra Nevada snowpack melts away. Tens of millions are displaced as the Kalahari desert expands across southern Africa



Rapidly-rising temperatures in the Arctic put Siberian permafrost in the melt zone, releasing vast quantities of methane and CO2. Global temperatures keep on rising rapidly in consequence. Melting ice-caps and sea level rises displace more than 100 million people, particularly in Bangladesh, the Nile Delta and Shanghai. Heatwaves and drought make much of the sub-tropics uninhabitable: large-scale migration even takes place within Europe, where deserts are growing in southern Spain, Italy and Greece. More than half of wild species are wiped out, in the worst mass extinction since the end of the dinosaurs. Agriculture collapses in Australia



The West Antarctic ice sheet breaks up, eventually adding another five metres to global sea levels. If these temperatures are sustained, the entire planet will become ice-free, and sea levels will be 70 metres higher than today. South Asian society collapses due to the disappearance of glaciers in the Himalayas, drying up the Indus river, while in east India and Bangladesh, monsoon floods threaten millions. Super-El Niños spark global weather chaos. Most of humanity begins to seek refuge away from higher temperatures closer to the poles. Tens of millions of refugees force their way into Scandanavia and the British Isles. World food supplies run out


Warming seas lead to the possible release of methane hydrates trapped in sub-oceanic sediments: methane fireballs tear across the sky, causing further warming. The oceans lose their oxygen and turn stagnant, releasing poisonous hydrogen sulphide gas and destroying the ozone layer. Deserts extend almost to the Arctic. “Hypercanes” (hurricanes of unimaginable ferocity) circumnavigate the globe, causing flash floods which strip the land of soil. Humanity reduced to a few survivors eking out a living in polar refuges. Most of life on Earth has been snuffed out, as temperatures rise higher than for hundreds of millions of years.

Inspired by Luca's article (see randomization2.skyblog.com) I remembered this amazing documentary I watched during a particularly boring ict lesson...

Are we really alone in the whole universe? There are many reasons to think we aren't. This video pretty much sums them all up and it, in my humble opinion, is definitely worth watching. I would quote some of my favourite reasons to you now, but I don't want to spoil it. Just watch it. Yes, it really is that good!

Tell me:

...what RIGHT have we got to asK: "WHY ME?" when TIMES ARE BAD......

......................................................if we NEVER ask "WHY ME?" when TIMES ARE GOOD ? ! ? !

A sign of maturity is when you find that you care for someone else at least as much as you care for yourself, without needing to first remind yourself about how you should feel...

When you know that to be mature is to care about everyone in the world more than you care for yourself, and you strive to attain this...then you are truly mature.



Everyone matures to varying levels - but what RIGHT have we to judge everybody else, until we are first judged mature enough to do so by everyone else ? ? ?

Judgement should be sought out, never found when you weren't looking for it...
Criticisms should be found, not sought out.

You don't want to mess up your exams. So you go away to study. But you then come back too soon, thinking that you're ready. And all the study that you did do, it doesn't help. You still mess up the exams, because you weren't ready to come back yet.
You mess them up anyway.

You end up doing exactly what you were trying not to do in the first place.
Stupid.....to put 90% into sorting something out and then for it all to come undone because of the missing 10%.




so very stupid of me...

It's a dark night. Cold. Very cold. But that's okay, you're dressed for it. A branch brushes against the sleeve of your long coat. You walk on and the leaves crunch with a crisp sound underneath your warm boots. You can barely make out the path, only the dim stars above your head make it possible to just about see. It doesn't bother you as you're used to this dim light and your eyes have had time to gradually adjust to this semi-darkness. You keep on walking, more leaves crunch underfoot and you brush quickly through several more branches that almost block your way. Stopping to admire the wilderness, the darkness of the nigh, the sheer unrealness of the whole place, you inhale deeply the glorious scent of the night. You have a sudden impulse to go walk on again, this time faster, to run with the wind through your hair! You quicken your pace. Duck under a branch, spin past another. Faster now! Exhilerated, you increse your speed yet again! Now the steady crunch of leaves underfoot becomes a constant swish. The branches are everywhere, but you're far to fast. You dodge, you duck, you twirl, you jump, past them all! Nothing can stop you. You're invincible! Faster again, faster, yet even faster! You'll never stop! You run so fast that now you can't even see where you're running anymore, but that's ok, you can sense the branches, guess the pathway and anyway..it's the wind, the cold, bitter, fresh wind against you face, that really matters! The euphoria! The sheer speed! The impossible is reality! You'll never stop! Whoa, just missed that branch there. Hah! It couldn't stop you, nothing can! But the branches are now growing thicker, closer togeather, more numerous... The few small, dim stars are now blotted out by the thick foliage overhead. You run on, ever faster! Your legs must now be a blur, if you could only see them. You have a sudden impression of running through air, through nothing! You realise now that you have left the path with it's crunchy leaves. That you can no longer see a thing. That you are utterly lost. That the stars have gone out. But it's still okay. You have the wind in your face, this new world of darkness is cool, no problem. You've always managed before, what can go wrong now? It crosses your mind that you're in too deep this time, but you cast aside this notion and the slight hint of fear that comes behind it. You laugh madly, insanely, crazily, daring the night to stop you, tempting the demons of your nightmares to prevent your passage! Because you know they can't. You know you're far too fast for them and that if they did show up, you would show them. Again you laugh, picturing your crazy grin as you run onwards, ever onwards...and then suddenly, without any sort of warning, a branch smashes into the front of your skull with a loud, hollow sounding thump.

Thank God I kept my cool today...
Thank you so much that I didn't get any really crap marks in anything, today...
Thank God no teacher pushed me over the edge. Because all it would have taken was one teacher making some stupid comment about me, my work or my behaviour, and I would have bloody errupted and done some serious damage...

All f***in' day , and all day yesterday, I felt like ripping up the papers placed on my desk, screaming obscenities at everyone and anyone, picking up my bloody desk and throwing it out the bloody window. Hard. Then screaming my head off and running out the door to who knows where. And hell, I would have done it if a teacher had given me a hard time. I really would.

When I get pissed over something, I don't just get mad, I explode. Rarely happens though. Most people who know me would probably say I'm a gentle guy, who never picks fights, tries to avoid fights, hardly ever swears and then only mildly and never in a bad temper. Just annoying at times... Well, I do get pissed sometimes. And though I might not pick fights, it doesn't mean I can't fight or that I'm weak. Hell, a lot of people would be surprised if they ever got int oa fight with me. I'm stronger than I look, never give up, fast and boy can I pack a punch when I want to. But I'm normally a pacifist all right... It takes a LOT to push me over the edge. When I go over, I go mental and explode in your face.

Except now, now I'M BLOODY WELL HANGING ON TO THE EDGE! SO FOR GOODNESS SAKE, DON'T STEP ON MY FINGERS! And if you do, I'm dead sorry for whatever I do afterwards...

I can only keep praying I won't react, that I'll stay calm and keep cool. That no teachers are gonna give me a bad day. It's bad enough. If they want to make it worse...

I'm seeing everything in shades of black, blue and red. Half the time I'm damned depressed, or angry, or just confused. Or angry at being confused.

I'm on a short fuse.

Don't light it, please.

I might hurt someone. Or break something. Lots of something in fact. I soooo want to pick up my desk and throw it through the window, I really do. If I get the slightest excuse I will...

Sorry ppl, I'm a pretty shit guy to know and have a round atm. I pray that this red mist will soon ease off. I could lock it up and hide it from view like b4 if only my burden was slightly lighter once more.