My Shadows - Your Borderline

[I know the sound quality on the vid isn't too great, but I preffered this vid to the others available.]

My desk speaks volumes about my personality and my approach to life...

........................-though I have to admit...it's pretty tidy in this pic towards usual!

Love the song, love this vid! I'm pretty sure the word 'fire' in this context means problems with the world. Great song :D

This is the same survey I posted a page or two ago, but I thought it would be fun if I turned schizophrenic and filled it out myself...! Here's the result:

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ?
1 I committed suicide : Um..die?
2 I said I liked you : Logically I'd like me too.
3 I kissed you : is that humanly possible?
4 I lived next door to you : erm...guess you could say we'd be very close neighbours.
5 I started smoking : I'd stop.
6 I stole something : Wouldn't steal it without good reason in the first place.
7 I was hospitalized : I'd go to sleep and wait for the sympathy and gifts to roll in =P
8 I ran away from home : I'd keep me company and talk to me a lot more.
9 I got into a fight and you weren't there : I'll always be there..you can't escape me...



WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY :
10 Personality : stuck with it, it'll have to do. It's ridiculous though..
11 Eyes : Green? Hmm...piercing blue would have been nicer...but I'm starting to like the green more and more...
12 Face : Urgh, don't talk to me about that pesky thing xD
13 Hair : ! Messy, too long, not long enough, too wavy, not wavy enough... It pisses me off. At least the colours right. I'd cut it short again..but then if I want it long the next week I'd have to wait a year for it to grow... Maybe I'll make it into a wig then grow short hair..hmm...
14 Clothes : One day I'll actually find an outfit that I like! For now I make do with what I have.
15 Mannerisms : Annoying , to say the least. Polite in all the wrong ways and waaay out of order most of the time.





[1] Who are you ? I'm Me. Pleased to meet me too.
[2] Are we friends ? I prefer to think of us a business associates.
[3] When and how did we meet ? Lets not go there.
[4] How have I affected you ? You're that psky vice that's always telling me to do this and not to do that.
[5] What do you think of me ? On the whole a nice guy, but one who struggles to show his most basic thoughts to anyone other than myself.
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me ? Running atop a high wall with no apparent fear and perfect balance, thinking about life and deciding then how I was gonna handle it.
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies ? For the rest of our life and beyond all eternity.
[8] Do you love me ? No comment.
[9] Have I ever hurt you ? Yes, whenever you fall over you clumsy oaf.
[10] Would you hug me ? Is it possible?
[11] Would you kiss me ? Now that CAN'T be possible...
[12] Are we close ? We're litterally stuck to each other.
[13] Emotionally, what stands out ? The determination to make something of myself by 'saving the world' (this can be anything from being friendly to politics, it's part of a complicated philosophy of mine!).
[14] Do you wish I was cooler ? All the time, but I never covet coolness.
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I ? 3.768.
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Give myself three: Glossy-Boots (famous for my 'mad hacker' football playing skills as a kid, in my lucky, shiny, red wellingtons), GuybrushP (main character from the best game in the world, Monkey Island, with a P for Paul at the end), the Shadowmancer (character I invented from WFRP and a subtle indication of how I feel when I walk in this world).
[17] Am I loveable ? Dunno. Time will tell...
[18] How long have you known me ? All my life.
[19] Describe me in one word. Misunderstood.
[20] What was your first impression ? Who's this feckin eejit? ...oh, it's me.
[21] Do you still think that way about me now ? Yes.
[22] What do you think my weakness is ? The same as a REAL democracy: thinks too much and is therefore to slow to take decisive action.
[23] Do you think I'll get married ? No, but it's still possible.
[24] What about me makes you happy ? The way I'll never give up and the way I have concealed the worst side of me from the world.
[25] What about me makes you sad ? The way I can never ever let go of myself or come out of my shell.
[26] What reminds you of me ? Mirrors.
[27] What's something you would change about me ? Everything at first glance and nothing when I think about it. I like a challenge and that's what I am.
[28] How well do you know me ? VERY well.
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't ? No, you know waaay too much...!
[30] Do you think I would kill someone ? Certainly. If I had good reason to.
[31] Are you going to put this on your site and see what I say about you ? Have done before you asked, couldn't really help it...

Indeed it does.


E-P-I-C-N-E-S-S!

Thought I might aswell try this, lol, enjoy if you can be bothered to fill it out!

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ?
1 I committed suicide :
2 I said I liked you :
3 I kissed you :
4 I lived next door to you :
5 I started smoking :
6 I stole something :
7 I was hospitalized :
8 I ran away from home :
9 I got into a fight and you weren't there :



WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY :
10 Personality :
11 Eyes :
12 Face :
13 Hair :
14 Clothes :
15 Mannerisms :





[1] Who are you ?
[2] Are we friends ?
[3] When and how did we meet ?
[4] How have I affected you ?
[5] What do you think of me ?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me ?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies ?
[8] Do you love me ?
[9] Have I ever hurt you ?
[10] Would you hug me ?
[11] Would you kiss me ?
[12] Are we close ?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out ?
[14] Do you wish I was cooler ?
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I ?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable ?
[18] How long have you known me ?
[19] Describe me in one word.
[20] What was your first impression ?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now ?
[22] What do you think my weakness is ?
[23] Do you think I'll get married ?
[24] What about me makes you happy ?
[25] What about me makes you sad ?
[26] What reminds you of me ?
[27] What's something you would change about me ?
[28] How well do you know me ?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't ?
[30] Do you think I would kill someone ?
[31] Are you going to put this on your site and see what I say about you ?

What is true love?

Well

One thing I can say is that it's a feeling so intense between two people, not necessarily passionate, but so strong, that it can overcome anything that the world can ever possibly throw at it. It's like dancing in the rain after a 10 year drought, it's like breathing for the first time. It hurts like a thousand daggers through your heart, but you'd rather die than give up on that feeling. It's to care for someone far more than you care for yourself. If they cheated on you you wouldn't hate them, you'd have forgiven them before they did it. It'd hurt you so much, but not as much as the thought of them being in any pain at all... It's the start of all things and the end of everything. It is the birth of life and the end of death. It is truth and lies... It's like the sun is setting on the world for the very first time and for the very last in the same moment. It's the best feeling in the world and even if it's a complete waste you'll never give up on it. It's the reason you live and the reason you are. It's the way foward for everyone...and the way backward. It's the last cigarette on earth.

It's love. Truly.

*Photocredit goes to Seán Labastille.*

I'd just like to dedicate this article to one of my best friends. I seriously don't know where I'd be without him, but I know for sure things could not have turned out as well as they did for me without this guy's help!

I can still remember so well the day we first met... He was the new guy in the class and I always make a point of saying hi to the new person as..well, I guess I remembered what it was like to be new. It was the start of break, on the first day of Secondary School for me and for him and he was sort of hanging around uncertainly outside the classroom door. I went up to him and spoke the first words that came into my head: "Haven't you got any lunch?" He looked up and replied: "Yeah, but are we meant to eat now?" I just looked back and shrugged before replying that I hadn't got a clue and it was a confusing for me as it looked for him. We laughed and wandered off down into B-Block to explore a bit. Twas a funny time, carefree and hopeful..ah, the good old days! :D

We had a good laugh later on when Thomas made friends with Shane and found out that the first thing I had said to Shane was also the same as what I had asked him, about his lunch!

All seems so long ago now, almost lost in the mists of time, but these memories are still so close in my heart I hope never to forget them. If I think of Thomas and memories then I get a whole collection of images flickering past in my mind: hats, laughter, dancing, bag flinging, chocolate milk drinking competitions, hats yet again, smiles, smiles and more smiles, chatting in class, notes in class, laughter in class, toasts in the canteen (with chocolate milk), trips to the cafeteria together, suits and hats, wrestling each other to the ground, music, angry teachers, enormously long armed teachers, running, jokes, Ugh!, birthdays, cinema trips, school trips, denim jackets, gym lessons with Pianka gone horribly wrong, Shane and Hakon, water fights, snowball fights, the Baldwin, our secret sign language....so many, a never-ending stream of smiles and fun!

But there were the sadder, more serious times aswell of course... Troubled times, missed homeworks, girls we fell for (often enough the same ones at the same time!), life philosophies... Yeah, but we got through it all together :D

So what's so great about him? So much! We just tend to have this really innate understanding of each other, or so I feel. Though recently we've agreed on less than we used to, I still think that invisible bond of understanding and just pure friendship is there, maybe just partly obscured by recent events and issues. He loves to laugh and tell a funny story, with put-on accents and large gestures...I always tell him he'd make a great actor or comedian, but he says he's too shy. Thought there was that one time when we presented our dream ambition to the class as Mr. Brush and Mr. Scrubbs, made up on the spot, and it was HILARIOUS! We just have to do that again some time mate! (;

He's the kind of guy that appears very serious on the outside, but once you get to know him you'll realise that he likes nothing better than having a good time, smiling and cracking jokes -you just gotta get him started! If I was to offer one piece of advice to him, it wouldn't be to work harder at school (he knows what he's gotta do and I'm sure his parents and teachers remind him about that enough!) it's be just to let go a little more, to try new things, take risks and just go with it! Sometimes he needs to wind down a bit and just at least try things, as he tends to make his mind up before knowing the full story....he's maybe a bit over cautious at times which holds him back...but like I said, once he gets started he's a fab guy to have around!

Take the Merite Jeuness awards...what a night! Best fun I'd had in ages, just coz myself, Thomas and James were together and talking. We just 'gel' together so well, it's incredible! Put us in a crowd with others and we're nothing..but get the three of us alone and we'll soon be in REALLY high-spirits, dragging everyone else around us on a good time! Just because we know each other so well and get along like a house on fire, or maybe even a whole city on fire!

Or put the two of us on a bus and bang you have some fun things going on! =P



To the future and greater times together mate! To friendship and to Ugh! Rock on and may the donkeys never sneeze too much in your direction! (;